Love for Dummies: NOT REALLY BACK!

Alfredo: Voglio raccontarti una cosa. Una volta un re fece una festa e c’erano le principesse più belle del regno. Ma un soldato che faceva la guardia vide passare la figlia del re. Era la più bella di tutte e se ne innamorò subito. Ma che poteva fare un povero soldato a paragone con la figlia del re! Basta! Ma, finalmente, un giorno riuscì a incontrarla e le disse che non poteva più vivere senza di lei. E la principessa fu così impressionata del suo forte sentimento che disse al soldato: “Se saprai aspettare cento giorni e cento notti sotto il mio balcone, alla fine, io sarò tua!”
Ma, subito il soldato se ne andò là e aspettò un giorno, due giorni e dieci e poi venti. Ogni sera la principessa controllava dalla finestra ma quello non si muoveva mai. Con la pioggia, con il vento, con la neve era sempre là. Gli uccelli gli cacavano in testa e le api se lo mangiavano vivo ma lui non si muoveva. Dopo novanta notti era diventato tutto secco, bianco e gli scendevano le lacrime dagli occhi e non poteva trattenerle poiché non aveva più la forza nemmeno per dormire… mentre la principessa sempre lo guardava. E arrivati alla novantanovesima notte il soldato si alzò, si prese la sedia e se ne andò via.

Salvatore: Ma come? Alla fine?

Alfredo: Si, proprio alla fine, Totó. E non mi domandare qual é il significato. Io non lo so! Se lo capisci, dimmillo tu.

Salvatore: Boh!

I was watching again Cinema Paradiso and this is the story that really marked how I see love at times!
I got another answer but I will write it down in some days!

JESUS ANTONIO

Long time no Do! FANART

All the rights the Wrestlers´image belong to their respective owners!

La imagen de los Luchadores son propiedad de ellos mismos!!

Enjoy the FANART piece!

JESUS ANTONIO

Love for Dummies: Emotional or Mature.

Hey guys, well I have a lot of things to say this time but I guess I will start the topic with a Love for Dummies section.
I am still dating this new girl and as I said before I am trying to know her and for the first time I am not with that stupid mind-freak control mode I normally apply to myself, in fact I haven´t picture anything wrong or good about this relation, I have to say that I like her and as I said it is more about her perspective and her maturity, I am really impressed about the way YOU girls mature, You are always ahead of us.
She has been in a harsh really harsh enviroment and full of lacks (emotional, educational and economical ones) that is probably one of the things I like of her because I can relate. I have to be honest but I haven´t picture her in the long run not even in the short but as I was telling her I am really grateful to her because I am closing some things I didn´t expect and also for the fact of giving myself the chance to be with her and NOT to be a rack of nerves.
One of the things We were talking while being together is that I will be flat and straight to her if anything good or bad comes in the future, because one of the things She was amuzed is to know why at the age of thirty-something I was not married or at least with children, and I was telling her that it was a matter of giving priorities and to try not to fool people, just a matter of reciprocity,I still dunno If I did right but in the conversation came out that in this moment I am trying to know her and that at this moment of the situation I do not have any expectation.
I mean I have my own agenda (and she has hers) at the moment and If She is there fine for me, If she is not there fine for me, but I will let her know as soon as possible, not to fool her or to fool me.

Have a great day!!
JESUS ANTONIO

Love for Dummies. The Experiment.Updated!!!

Well this is going to be my experiment, tomorrow I have something to do in the morning and I will not tell anything to anyone or anybody till tomorrow night when I already know what the situation is to start talking.

The experiment is to wait and not to expect anything till everything comes...so expect an update when everything is at least in one direction or the other.

Wish me Luck!!!!

Updated!!!:

Well maybe what I am going to say this time is going to be quite different from what I have written before.

Have you ever dated someone without high or low expectations, good or bad intentions?

This is me now, I have to say this girl is really nice, She is not beautiful but not ugly, I really like her way of thinking and that is what I am attracted to...We have nice chemestry...in fact...really good!!!!!, and We get along quite good!!

For the first time in ages I am going to start going out with a girl and to be honest I haven´t even thought of her in a negative or a positive way, or picturing myself with her or not...I am only trying to let the time tell everything.

If we last long great for me, If it doesn´t happen good for me!!! She knows I am leaving for some months hometown (Spain, USA and If I have some extra cash UK and Brujas) and from what I heard She wants to study English and go out to Canada, so I am not with that pressure I normally feel, and besides that She is behaving so understanding in some issues I have for now.

Are We boyfriend or girlfriend...?...nope..We haven´t talk about it!!!...I guess We are trying to know eachother, I do not want to set her in a pedestal or to have good or bad impressions of her not at this moment.

I still do not know If it is okey to think or to be in this way with her...only time will tell!!

Have a great day!!!

JESUS ANTONIO

Happy Valentine to you ALL!!!

Nuff said!!

Have a great time!!
June thank you!!!

JESUS ANTONIO

Love for Dummies. The Quote

“A guy and a girl can be just friends but at one point or another one of them will fall for the other, maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late or maybe, just maybe…forever.”

I liked the quote!!!

Have a great day!!

Yeah, I know I need to explain the image, it is one of the first Edison films and it is called Man embracing a Woman or The Kiss.

JESUS ANTONIO

Love for Dummies: I need to live in Sweden.

Well even before expected I am writing this post, today I had my second and last date with this lady (let me call her tight booty :) ). I didn´t talk about her because in fact and as you know I am nowadays very reluctant to talk about my lovelife until there are at least some headings. First things first, I met this girl many years ago almost seven years and to be honest in that moment I used to like her a lot and you know how Fate is and I bumped into her again over 2 months ago. As usual I am not saying I had a crush on her, it was more like I wanted to see the way She thinks and based on that to know if the things will go farther or not.
We had a coffee about two weeks ago and She behaved so nicely with me over the coffee We were catching up with things and well She told me She was divorced, not looking for a commitment but open to listen to the proposals around, I have to say that for the first time in ages I didn´t even chicken out when She told me about her bad bad past situation (because I am in my understanding mode and mood, I understand how difficult is for people to try to re-start their lives not based on something or someone). I have to say that the thing that I got from the talk is that She was a loyal person and to be honest I always find that as a virtue.And funny but I was instead of afraid I was more like open to know her more and REALLY interested in her.
Today was our second quasi-date and the date was about to be at 2:30, She arrived till 3:00, She didn´t even apologize or said something, I was not angry but as you know When someone arrives early it is a way to say "I respect You".
On second thoughts, She apologized in her way telling me that the traffic was so heavy down where She lives (damn I was about to tell her that it was 2:00 in my house and raining cat and dogs with a hard hale and I got sharp to the place), but as I said I was in my understanding mood and I forgot about that detail. I still do not know why, I was about to decide the place to have lunch, and after some hesitations from my side (I hate to decide on places because I do not go out to restaurants so often), I forgot to say that I was saving some money to invite to a nice decent place, while going downtown I still do not know but the conversation was really awkward, for a strange reason the conversation became so vain, very different to the last one considering She was not helping asking me things to keep track on the conversation. We entered to that coffee place I like (a little fancy, not expensive but not cheap) and the conversation became smoother and a bit better while We were eating (I ordered a Fornaccio, that is a pizza without the tomato and a Tai that is a shake of spices, and She ordered a Roman salad, We shared the plates and I had a pleasant good time).
Probably the next part was my entire fault I have to admit it, but I really liked the way this girl was so I normally after some dates or when I want to make my mind about going straight forward or not , I normally ask my date about some topics that I find quite amuzing and gives me a perspective of what I will face later on a serious situation.
Disclaimer: What I am going to write next is not to provoke people, I mean to be honest I am quite happy in the way I think and also in my moral values, I am only stating how the conversation went on. I have a profound respect for self-decisions and opinions ( I mean politics, religion and self-preferences) and I always move my life in that direction of respecting or trying as much as possible to respect who you are no matter what, and well I brought into the conversation that one of my best closed friends is gay, He is a lovely man (I do not quite understand his decision in life but I can only say that I respect his decision and also that I respect him and care for him and the other people I have found with the same sexual preference, as my friend explain it to me, I do not like chicken but not because of that you have to stop liking me...right?, well maybe I am intolerant with only one type of people: The ones that do not tolerate or judge according to their religious values).
I discovered over my life that for me to be gay or not or to have a different religious status or political pointer do not really interfere with me to know you and see what a nice person you are or can be, I try not to label people because I do not like being labeled as well. Hmmmmmmmmm that became such a BIG ISSUE for her, She even told me straight forward that If She finds out that one of her friends is one of them She will immediately stop contact with him or her.
The enchantment dissapeared at that moment...
Damn! She freaked out and the conversation became zero, thankfully I was leaving to talk to a friend of mine for the next Lucha tickets.... I still do not understand, that means that I have to live in Sweden or Finland or Denmark to be understood?. I thought a lot to write this today but as you can infere this is also part of not finding a beloved one with enough self-confidence and respect to people and many of the girls in my enviroment are with the same fears or thoughts...that is also part of not opening up so fast because some people find my way of thinking harsh or difficult to swallow and it is becoming a big issue for me in love matters...or maybe I am in the wrong place??.......me.....clueless as usual!!.
I like this girl but How in hell you can be with someone who is afraid to respect or understand!!

Will I continue seeing her? NO!!!

ps: I forgot to mention She is not a tiny toon (teenager), She is my age.

Have a great day!!

JESUS ANTONIO

Love for Dummies: The Musical or The Sequel

There is a reason behind to share this video but I will write in some days about it or probably when I arrive home late night, so I wanted to share this video (Thanks Pepo again!!) of one of my favorite singers Jarvis Cocker before writing the new chapter of Love for Dummies (In case you ask me who this guy is, He was the lead-singer of PULP).

Enjoy!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c1oMtwmTaNQ

Have a great day!!

JESUS ANTONIO

Love for Dummies. The Musical.

I am not going to talk today about my lousy love life because that is for another chapter coming soon!!!!
I juSt wanted to share the video done by Max, one of the greatest illustrators in Spain, This video was done with music of Los Planetas (a nice band). In case you ask me about Max, He has done so many things being work over La Vibora or Peter Pank just to name a few of them.
Thank you Pepo for sharing the interview you did to him on your blog!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1dyQZ7wD-YU

Enjoy!!

JESUS ANTONIO

Love for Dummies:Il Bacio Sulla Bocca.

Thanks June for the advice...
First Text message (mine):
The one who needs to apologize is me, because I have been trying really hard to have a word with you and it seems that will never happen so I just wanted to see you to let you know that:

1.-I think you are an incredible person and I enjoy your company a lot.
2.-I haven´t been able to take you out from my head and from my tiny heart.
3.-I only wanted to tell you that and I am not expecting anything from it. Be good and Take care!

Second Text Message (hers):
"Thank you so much for what you say, in fact you are such a great guy, *tqm, sorry for not feeling the same way or give what you want from me but you know that you can rely on me and our friendships is there anytime. tqm."


*tqm, it is hard to explain in English because the translation is like "I love you" but it reality the proper translation is "I like you", If you are italian you might understand tqm is the same as "Ti voglio bene".

Nuff said!
ps:Funny, She thinks I am interested in the friendship and to be honest I am not really fond of going that way...or able to go that way...!

Have a great day!!!

JESUS ANTONIO

Love for Dummies: Steady Not.

I am dissapointed about the things going on my job, but I will talk about it in another post, it seems I am having this feeling of not being valued enough, I really hope to be wrong. For the first time in months I do really hope the comic plans I have concrete soon, I am confident on that..well..let´s start the topic.

Never happens to you that You keep doing dumb things...well I was playing with the odds for the last time and I guess everything is just going to crapolla land.
I do really like Glossy lips (You know that :) ), and I still don´t know why (well I know but it is weird because I do not want to justify myself), I really wanted to take the feelings I have for her out of my chest but for more that I try the worse the thing becomes, so I hope this is the definitive closure.
Did I tell you guys that Glossy lips kept on sending me those wishing well mails over X-mas and New Year?.
Me stupid sent her a text message telling her to call me on Sunday to agree on going out (yeaph, third is the charm as people say, I know please scold at me I deserve it!!),She asked If I was okey (seems I have given her the impression that I am over a big emotional turmoil, probably yes, but I do not really care as I used to If you know what I mean), She call me on Sunday and I asked her what plans She had for Tuesday from 8pm to 12pm (yeaph!, yesterday night), She asked me Where I was to invite her this time, so I replied that it was a secret (in fact I had an extra ticket for the Luchas but I never told her I wanted her to be with me yesterday night), then She told me She would check on her timings and duties and She would let me know asap, Well, When She said that I thought negatively and I was right,She Sent me a text message letting me know that for her was a little complicated to go out over the week because of her school and not wanting to sleep late etc.., I sent her a mail telling her that it was okey but it was bad that I had some tickets but it wouldn´t be a problem of not being able to go out with me, She started asking for what kind of tickets and that She was so sorry and that She would like to refund the money I paid for the tickets, I answered to her that the issue was not the money and that She had nothing to worry that it was okey (I sold the ticket to a friend, I didn´t tell her that, obviously!)and that it was a secret where I was supposed to invite her.
Today I saw her in the bus while going to the school, and right here is the situation, I was in my school room and She was going straight to the restroom (W.C), When She saw me She went towards me and set her left hand in my chest ( trying to have the usual hand play We do When We see eachother) and asked me to forgive her that She was sorry for not being able to go out with me, I told her that I would talk to her later not there and not at that time (because I was in the middle of my class), She asked me again If I will not forgive her and I told her the same, well I guess She got angry and left to the restroom (I still do not understand girls sometimes it seems you need to keep playing the same games they play...), after my classes I sent her a text message telling her that I had nothing to forgive that it was nothing to worry about and also told her to take care...She hasn´t sent a response and is probably mad...!
Seems I will bury my feelings about her from now on and I am thinking and thinking in the same idea "When you want to do something you do it", so it seems She does not want but behaves in the opposite direction. Well I tried enough and now I am just giving it up.
Check this link and If you are heart broken read the old episodes of Dumb Love done by an artist called Silas.
www.redsilas.com


Have a great day!!

JESUS ANTONIO

Love for Dummies. The Iceland.

Thanks June for the wish I also wish you the same and seven times more!!
Urban Butterfly thank you so much for the advice and thanks for your words about my blog!
Yesterday I was talking to one of my best friends male (Yeaph! The one who dances and teaches tango), and well He was telling me that at last He was feeling great because now He has two nice options to select for his new significant other.
I am really happy for him and this time He was doing all the conversation and I was only talking at times just to tell him how happy I was for him knowing He is trying to be steady with someone.
In my case this is the first year I have no idea what it is going to happen and I have to say I am a little sour with the year that passed (in terms of my tiny heart) and to be honest I do not even have the illusion to find someone not for now, I mean I guess from what you have read I will be really busy as soon as I start with Rocket Girl plus the projects I have around and also the proposal that is still in approval that I am sure it will have thumbs up soon, So this is the first year I will stop caring that much about finding someone, I have to admit that sometimes it is really painful to see the Harvesting of my work and not having someone to share this aside my Family (I hope you can understand this).
Funny but yesterday while talking to my friend I was really feeling that void of emptiness, I mean this is the first time in many months I do not really have a new person to start building castles or really fancing to the point to start loving or caring (Well I know Who I like and who I loved now but it is pointless to keep focusing on that anylonger) so I am trying to start clean the year.
As my friend told me probably next week, or in a month or months, I will bump into the right one, I am not closing myself I have to add, it is more like I am going to stop worrying about it, some people are just cruel or careless and for the first time I do not want to lose my time caring about it.
Just Time will tell!!!

Have a great day!!!

JESUS ANTONIO

Post Scriptum. Heather sorry for stealing one of your damn fine images!!

Love for Dummies: Ni pa´tras ni pa´ delante.

Ni pa´tras ni pa´ delante means "I can Neither advance nor stand still".
I probably didn´t mention anything earlier because to be honest I was feeling a bit dumb about the situation.
Well about a month and 2 weeks ago when I was having that hard dissapointment not on Glossy lips it was more like a dissapointment towards me and the image I built of her, and hard to admit but I was still having those hard feelings for her. I got the nerve to invite her somewhere again mainly to know and let her know what my feelings were. I still do not know If I did right I only followed my damn tiny heart.
Well She replied She had a coffee that day but after the coffee with a friend, She would have time to go out with me, so She swore She would send me a text message as soon as She was done with her other appointment.
In fact She did it, She told me to wait for her in a mall near where She was about to be, I was on time as usual. What it was my surprise that She was with a friend (yeaph!! psyco girl was there), as you might understand I really felt stupid because the idea was to be alone with her and tell her everything I was trying to say over the past months, as you can understand I was not in my enviroment not even in the mood after that, so I just became silent and well I took it in the good way and I asked them to accompany me to buy some things I was in need, all the time from there on I was with them I was just quiet and honestly feeling a bit stupid for being in that situation.
Glossy lips asked me many times times why I was so quiet and a kind of disgusted and also said that it is not good to keep things on your chest that it you want to say something to say it...ahha!! right!!.
I just told her that in fact that I had something to say but it was not the right moment and well after 2 hours and a half Glossy lips and the other one said goodbye and left me in a bus stop near the mall.To add something else while I was in the bus heading to my place I received a text message from her "What is wrong with you?..If there is something I can do for you just let me know and I will try to help in the way I can..". Obviously after that lame day I decided not to invite her out ever again or to say how I feel for her...I mean...What for?
Do you understand something...me neither?????????
The following days as you might understand I tried not to see glossy lips in fact I was really successful (damn I am just repeating the scheme!!!).
This is the part that I can not even understand, 4 weeks ago I saw her while going to one of my classes and the first thing She did was to hug me, and She also told me that One day She was looking for me upstairs where I am supposed to be but because it was closed the door that day She didn´t want to interrup me and told me that She has been thinking about me lately, She hugged me twice and We even had that kind of hand play again... I just don´t get it!!.?????.
What I have been doing all this time after that is not to try to look for her or even want to create an encounter.
She has sent me two text mails, one to say Merry X-mas that I didn´t answer because I didn´t want to do so and a second one two days ago wishing me "A great X-mas time with my Family" and ending the message with the TQM (tqm, means "te quiero mucho", in English can be like "I love you so much", in this part another disclaimer when you write a person tqm can be as a friend or as something else, in this case I will think negatively and I will think that it is as a friend), I finally replied her second message telling her "The same to you and your Family and "tqm".
It hurts to write this but as I guess this is just my closure for the situation...and I have again that feeling of being dumb.

Have a great day!!

JESUS ANTONIO

Love for Dummies:Nice going?.

Hello guys...!
I am just moody today but that won´t interfere to write the third part.
This time it is a quite mellow situation...well since long time ago I used to be an aquaintance for a kind girl, let´s call her "candid" She is just amazing and has an incredible candid sight,She is well educated and humble and down earthed in the overall "kind",in fact She is the girl you wouldn´t doubt to show to your family right off the bat and for several reasons being mainly that She is studying Medicine and in about a year or a couple of years to finally get her Bachelors... We have been always having that kind of - "Hi, Hello, What´s up?, Have a great day!,I am quite in a hurry,Everything is just fine!, Take care, Bye"- friendship, I guess some months ago I mentioned that I bumped into her with my tango friend (My friend who gives classes of Tango and also the one who fell in love at first sight with "candid" too :) )while We were about having a coffee nearby, happens that my house is really near the Faculty of Medicine where She studies, so it is quite normal to bump into eachother every few months. She promised me sometime ago She will give me some time to drink a coffee or a soft drink (She the same as I..do not drink).
Thing that have never happened due to her chores.
Well one day while checking my gmail account..I saw She was there and I started to have some talk (You, the people who know me knows that I am anti-chatting but that time I was in the mood to talk and also to take out of my chest what it was my perspective for her, remember I have been closing circles lately).
I just told her that I really like her and her way o being and that I would love that in case that someday and the stars line up properly..well to have the chance to know her in a more deep way. She said She didn´t know what to say, She told me that by now She has someone to love but not because of that is close to meet people, well in the overall She said that if one day She is free and the situation is the right one, She would like to know me more and see what happens based on that..sounds fair enough for me...don´t you?.
I know reality can change in an unexpected way but Why not to try to play the odds?..who knows maybe She is the one or maybe not.
I would be really honored and happy in case that one I become someone special or the beloved one on her life.
And in case you read this "candid" girlie girl, You know I am just sincere in what We talked that day!! :).

Have a great day!

JESUS ANTONIO

Love for Dummies:Dandome mi taco?.

Do you remember I went to watch a French movie because a friend of mine invited me?...Well the day I went to the Annual X-Mas Gathering from the school were I am teaching I had a great time talking to the girl in the photos (the one of the pink blouse) and while She was telling me about her lovelife, She commented me that a girl really likes me....and for a strange coincidence it was someone familiar to me..mmmmm...!!!.You guessed it!
The same girl who invited me to the french movie and friend of pinky blouse girl had a crush on me. I told my friend over the party that I was not even even even remotely interested on her, probably as a friend but nothing else!.
She asked me "Is it because She´s not quite attractive?". I replied that that was not the issue in fact my reason is quite flat and simple...I see her only as a friend and nothing more and to be honest not even interested in giving her any clue that I am interested on something romantic.
I guess you might understand me, as I was telling my pinky blouse friend that day, I still do not know why but you know what people is for you or what people can be in your life, there are people you can see as your friend, or as a stable relation or someone for a quick fuck or someone just to lose your time and have fun...and in my case I only see her as a Friend!!!.
Right here the only difference is that I am quite upfront on that kind of matters I mean, I hate when people make me think different things so I try not to do that myself (You know who comes to my mind :) ).
I guess this girl already saw that I do not see her as something else because to her bad luck, she saw me one day with Glossy lips...yeaph!!... the fourth story I need to write about..but in a matter of days!

Have a great time!

JESUS ANTONIO

Love for Dummies: Giving up my secret identity?

I saw this image of a guy who likes to draw Peanuts in different Marvel and DC characters and I remembered the original issue where Peter Parker is quitting to be Spider man after watching Gwen Stacy leaving to London (Ohhh my god, old good and incredible times from the past).
Well I am writing the first of four situations that have been annoying me, not really annoying me but making me think, maybe some of the reasons of my problem with my jaw :).
Well not really, I have been trying to close circles again specially in terms of my tiny hurt heart, so I decided to phone a girl (Do you remember that I mentioned maybe a year or less ago about a very religious girl who went out with me several times and thereafter just dissapeared from sight, and some months ago while talking to a nice friend I knew that She was dating me and him at the same time but the difference is that She kissed the other guy but me!? :). Well I decided to call her mainly to exactly know what happened between She and I, and She finally answered the phone (I tried to call her months ago but as usual her nasty family always said she was not available, so I finally gave up calling her time ago) , this time She told me She was so busy to go out with me but She for sure will have some time to see me in a couple of days , the first agreement was last Thursday from 8:30 to 10:00, hahahah!!!!!....One hour and a half!!!... She said 10:00 was her top limit to get home because of her Family and well I had to stand for 7 minutes how happy She was being the conselour of a religious group She is organizing, for me it is not a problem the religion in fact I was raised in a very religious Family but I learnt the difference of what I want or not from my beliefs, I do respect her or everybody´s choice but I have my own limits.
Well that day, I changed plans with some friends because that day They invited me to watch a soccer game and funny but I had to cancel also other appointments just to have clear time to see this girl.
So Last Thursday I was sharp at 8:30 where We said and I waited till 9:05.
SHE NEVER ARRIVED!
I just sent her a message telling her I was there on time and telling her the time of my leaving...Did I receive an answer back?
NOPE!!!

Girls, girls, girls!!

Did I close the circle? OF COURSE!!!

Have a great time!

JESUS ANTONIO

Love for Dummies: Now is the Age. Ha!

This is not what I was about to post today but something happened to me and well it is just confirming everything and nothing again about my lovelife.
Yesterday, I entered to check my mails (btw I have tons of mails to answer back) and as I know I NEVER enter to the Messenger mainly because I do not have the time or the willing to do so, but yesterday while trying to recover from my back ( I have a severe pain in the back mainly for being in my classes all the time standing up, btw I will enter into my normal eating regimen tomorrow).
Well the case is that I entered into the chat room and I saw someone that I haven´t seen in ages, I have to add that I know this girl since She was 15 years, literally!!, now She is in her nineteens or twenties, and what I was amazed from her was the fact of being a really nice girl and intelligent, I can say the word AMAZINGLY SMART, and really earth centered in few words I always thought that If I ever had a child girl I would love to raise her as the girl I am mentioning.
I can not totally say I had a crushed on her it was more like an admiration, I mean I know I have my own boundaries and in this case I have to say that I liked this girl in a nice way.
Well in the track of the conversation She just told me that I was one of her platonic loves since We met eachother, and for the first time I didn´t know what to do or how to react.
I mean, I have also to say that I guess by now She might be really gorgeous because when I met her She was cute... but as far as I know The age was the issue for her to tell me her feelings in the past...and now well time has passed and that itch She had for me just faded away or at least the intention to start something.
So my regular question comes..why the people who loves me, or sees who I am truthfully or has a crush on me has a problem or maybe the situation it is not the right one or for instance in this case the issue is the age?.
She also said that If I were her age She would be crazily in love with me!!!

Hahahahahah!!! Who might wonder that, right?

See you tomorrow!!

In case you ask me about what I will do MY ANSWER IS : NOTHING. :) (I guess it is just a matter of common sense) :)

JESUS ANTONIO 

Love for Dummies:Say with your mouth what your face tells.

It´s been quite a long time without talking about my sucky lovelife, isn´t it?.
Well many things have happened but at the same time nothing.
Recapitulating:

Story One.
I am still in love (at this point I am not really fond of using the word...) with Glossy Lips (yeah I know She said some time ago She didn´t want to be more than friends specially talking to what happened with "Psycho girl" the friend of Glossy lips). I am starting to do something similar to what I used to do with You know who, I mean to try not to get in the same path or same places where I know Glossy lips is, but two weeks ago I saw her again in the bus stop and I just couldn´t help and We started talking, for the record She has been saying nothing about a next going out and I haven´t asked her more because She only nods her head like saying that She doesn´t know when, anyway, that day I saw her in the bus stop We started again with that teasing We do and the same kind of hand play, Her bus was coming and I told her that If She should stay longer and to my surprise She told me "Why don´t you get in the same bus I take and We continue talking there and you drop off in the place you normally do?, well I got into the bus and We continued the conversation, She was telling how great She feels in the school and as usual I didn´t talk too much about me or what I am doing mainly not to jinx some plans I have.
Well my bus stop was near and I said goodbye to her and as soon as I was out of the bus I was thinking "damn! I still have this crush on her!".
Should I tell her that I still have this crush? Damn feelings!!

Story Two (New one!)
There is a girl in the past month that I think has feelings for me and I can say I like her so three weeks ago, I decided to confront her and ask her out and to see What was going on between us..to my dumbness the day I was decided to talk to her She left early the place, two weeks ago when I was again willing to ask her She was sick and I didn´t see her, and this week I was so busy grading an exam I was doing that I couldn´t reach her on time. Hopefully I will ask her next week.

Story Three (New one!).
A month ago a girl gave me away 4 poems written by her, I am sure She feels something for me but She hasn´t told me anything, if something develops or stops I will talk about it.
I have to be honest here, this girl is nice and I haven´t pictured her out or in my life so I have no idea...I guess I will let time tell.

Story Four (Yesterday!)
Damn! Damn! Damn!.
Yesterday I was feeling blue specially about the situation with Glossy Lips or the girl that I want to talk but I haven´t , so my friend, Yes the one who dances Tango invited me Donwtown to spy on some other dancers, so We went there and to my surprise He saw at the distance a friend of his, and they started dancing in the same place, I have to say my friend is a nice dancer and I was impressed, but I was astonished because I REALLY DIGGED THIS GIRL friend of my friend, I mean I was not attracted to her beauty it was about her personality, I mean Outgoing, smart, friendly,charming...I was so impressed that I asked my friend If He can tell her that I really like her.
To see this girl gave me a new dimension, I mean I was watching a real WOMAN and not the tiny toons or dumb girls I have been seeing and dating over these years, She has a boyfriend but do I care?? Nope!.
Probably nothing will happen but I guess it is worth the try! :)

Have a great day!!

JESUS ANTONIO

Love for Dummies: It´s Scary.

After what Wondy and June wrote about the situation with Glossy Lips..well...Have you ever felt this way??!!
I do not know how to express it in lines for the first time so you guys hope you understand how I feel now by watching this video and pay attention in the conversation of the two guys!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tdJVbmucD4s

Have a great time!!

JESUS ANTONIO

Love for Dummies: Against the Odds.

I do not know how to call this day or what happened today, I had a kind of nice day I even collected a bet (not money only tacos!!). One of my students betted those tacos because She was sure her favorite soccer team would win versus mine and She lost!!!.
Well I was getting ready the same as my students to go and eat tacos for free when I saw in the distance "Glossy Lips", I still do not know why She was kind of worried, I said hello to her and She just asked me If I had seen a person outside, She was really concerned, I just answered that I had no idea of the person She was looking for and asked her again when She had time to go out with me, She told me that I have to wait more time for that to happen and I just left the place with my students. While I was in the van with them I sent her a text message "are you worried about something?", well She replied after an hour "A little bit, I am not trying to be mean about not going out in this moment but I have so many things to do.."
So as usual just clueless!!!
So the score now is :
My Tiny Heart 0- Dissapoinment 1.
My tacos were delicious!! :)

I am listening to Goldfrapp "Russian Rampage", great stuff She does!!

Have a great Day!!

JESUS ANTONIO